A Joy to Live Like a Child do

Hidup berdampingan dengan sebuah kampung, dimana aku bisa melihat anak anak kampung bermain bola, berenang di kolam kubangan dengan ceria, menikmati hujan bersama teman temannya. 

Dan aku juga menyaksikan bagaimana anak anak yg tinggal di apartemen elit bermain bersama teman2 sebaya nya, menikmati apapun itu.

Mereka gak tau apa itu kaya miskin.

Mereka gak tau apa itu layak tidak layak.

Mereka gak tau apa itu nyaman tidak nyaman.

Mereka tidak peduli akan punya dan tidak punya.

Mereka hanya menikmati apapun yang sudah mereka punya. Mereka menciptakan bahagia dari apa yg mereka punya. Mereka menjalani hari tanpa berpikir kenapa, kalau, seandainya.

Mereka hidup di saat ini, detik ini, hari ini. Mereka mencintai hidup setiap hari tanpa berpikir esok bagaimana. Itu sudah ada yang atur. Aku hanya perlu hidup dan menikmatinya sebaik baiknya hari ini. Aku hanya perlu memikirkan bagaimana caranya aku bahagia hari ini? Aku gak berpikir resiko apa yang akan terjadi, karena itu membuat aku akan hanya berada di dalam rumah, dan gak menikmati 1 hari kebahagiaan yg aku punya.

Aku cuma punya ini, dan saat ini. Aku punya diriku. Aku harus hidup sebaik2nya dan menikmati hari ini. Ya, 1 hari 1 hari.

Aku Layak Bangun dengan Langit Seperti Ini

aku menemui Engkau dalam Langit pagi ini,

aku melihat Engkau dalam indahnya bentuk bentuk awan,

aku merasakan Engkau dalam hembusan sejuk angin yang bertiup melewati mukaku,

aku menemui Engkau dalam indahnya warna horizon,

aku merasakan Engkau dalam cahaya oranye Matahari yang terpantul di kaca gedung pencakar langit,

aku melihat Engkau dalam gradasi organik langit,

Tanamkanlah kasihMu yang berkelimpahan, tidak terbatas, tidak bersyarat dalam hatiku setiap hari. Agar orang melihatMu dalam diriku.

Ya, Tuhan, aku layak bangun setiap hari dengan Langit Mu yang megah, yang membawa pengharapan baru, yang membuat orang tersenyum, yang membuat orang mengingat Engkau Sang Empunya Semesta. Dunia, dan Bumi dimana segala hal selaras, hidup berdampingan dengan baik, sehat, dan bahagia. Semua memuji karya ciptaanMu yang agung setiap pagi, setiap malam. Bangun dengan perasaan bersyukur, dengan senyum di wajah, dengan hati yang hangat.

Ya, aku memilih untuk hidup di sisi Bumi yang Baru.

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7.55am

WHAT KIND OF LIFE AM I LIVING?

Sometimes, there will be a day where I just wanna lay down and doing nothing, like I'm so bored and uninspired. I don't know what kind of life I want to live. Everyday always feel the same. The same routine, the same people, the same conversations, the same job, the same environment. Nothing really excites me, no one really excites me. 

I don't know if I'm still stuck at quarter life crisis kinda excuse or not. Is it even really existed? 

My unconscious state always reeling with the words of "why", "what if". Is it just me who just wait and not doing anything? Is it just me just waiting for a miracle while I lay on my bed and daydreaming? Is it just me that is way too comfortable inside my own bubble? What is out there? What is it outside my world that is just meant for me? How could I achieve it? How could I pick them up?

I hope, we all could find the purpose, or at least make it.

xoxo, 
Janice

HIKING KE CISADON DAN REFLEKSI DIRI

I would call it a great day for a hike. Issa cloudy from 3.45 am. Along the way with my 4 friends, I thanked God for the day. Though I pretty much having anxiety for my health due to the pandemic, but well, I took my faith, if it's not by the grace of God, we wouldn't be cramped together here.

It's around 6 am we're arrived at the first post. The location is behind the grandous Sentul City, and our destination was about 7kms up. And with no expectations, there are cars and people who set the exactly same date with our date to do the hike. Umm...... Okay. There won't be any single conversation with them, I told myself, PLUS they are all strangers, yup it's a plus. So after some preparation, we set off! My friend, Joanika will be the guide!

To be really honest, it is my VERY FIRST doing this 'professional' hiking thing with little professional equipment. I only took my running shoes which later such a bad decision, my waist bag, and pocari sweat. Yup, not fancy at all. hahaha. I also expect it would be a beginner trails y'all, and turned out IT WASN'T. OKay. With my very very very bad exercise habit, it is such a reckless decision I've made. BUT ALSO THE BEST DECISION I'VE TAKE! I would say, a blessing in disguise.

As you guys can see, it wasn't any bit of a beginner trails, huh? I discovered it is also for the Motor Trails and Jeeps or Off Road Experiences. So, the trek was damn bad for an entry level for us 4. But, I couldn't be such a fuss and cried my eyeballs out for us to go back! I don't wanna be a loser! I have to do this, and I kinda enjoyed myself that day. To have all my thoughts work on itself. I also keep mouthing how thankful I am for God already sent this weather for us. No Sun peeking, and windy breeze all day long, a very good friends, good mood, nice scenery along the road, BEST AIR to inhale deeply as many as possible.

there is this camp ground who provided hot drinks & breakfast (FOR FREE) in the morning

I learned about so many things during my way up and my way down. But before I talked about how painful my way down, let's checklist some of the lesson i've learned during the trip: (it may be such a cliche things I'll write down here, but I know now the meaning behind all those words)

1. The first thing was NO MATTER HOW HARD YOUR PATHS, KEEP DOING THE BEST YOU CAN DO

2. There will always be miracles, and something you will grateful for, along the rockiest roads. Shift your sight, when you are feeling down, there will always rainbows in every corners.

3. YOUR TIME, IS NOT EVERYONE'S TIME. Take your own pace. Everyone's timing is different. Yet, everyone's blessings are different. There will be someone who will passes you, there will be someone who stays with you, there will be someone who is behind you. But whatever slow or fast, you know, you will get to your goals, little by little.

4. TAKE REST but NEVER STOP.

5. The fog may falls, and your sight will be short, but with carefulness, you know where to steps.

6. Be so much grateful with everyones who stays with you, through ups and downs, through your sorrows and your joys. And those who are waiting for you patiently at the finish line, so they could celebrate it together.

I truly am thankful for my friend, Adeline, for she was at the same pace as me. Hahahaha! I was so slow like a sloth! The most least person, uphills and downhills. So was she that day. Though Adeline going faster than me, but I could always saw her back, and keep telling myself I am not alone in this foggy muddy roads. Also, she doing her own business, and so am I. I only need the companionship, I only need to assure myself I didn't walk alone. It is so much okay for me, if there is no any conversations nor interactions at all.

The greatest part was the way down. Heavy rain poured like about two hours when we're arrived at the Cisadon Village. We took a rest and lunch there, before we started to hike down. Of course the road are much more muddy and slippery, we must took a really careful step. There are more and more people hiked up, also the motorbikes and the off road cars. They worsen the muddy trails. There are Jeeps and Motorbikes who can't climbed up because of the trails condition. I couldn't bring my phone up as I keep looking at my own steps, it is really really scary, plus my legs are all screaming dead >.< Our shoes covered up in muds and soils, making it as slippery as they wanted to be. But, we all made it to the finish line, again! Praise God! How I wish I could photographed how scary the way home trails for you guys, but it is not a wise time to do it. It really is not a beginner track with less professional equipment and experiences.

I couldn't straight my legs up as they are all crying in pain.

before everyone's drained ;P

Thank you for staying with me, until the end!

XOXO,

Janice

PENGALAMAN INSTAGRAM DETOX

ilustrasi foto oleh : Ignite Treatment Centers

Hello, Friends!

Yaampun, ini adalah post yang tertunda hampir sebulan deh. Ingat, waktu itu, aku janji mau

update tentang social media detox yang aku jalani selama bulan Oktober. Oke, tanpa panjang-panjang

pembukaannya, mari kita lihat apa yang di dapat!

1. FOKUS PADA PEKERJAAN

Ya, jadi selama tidak membuka Instagram pribadi, aku jadi lebih fokus pada pekerjaanku.

Setiap kali bosan, jadi tidak scroll-scroll atau liatin ig story orang lain. Pekerjaanku ya memang

tetap membutuhkan social media, karena lapangan pekerjaanku social media content, jadi aku

masih memegang Instagram kantor. Tetapi sebatas untuk upload harian saja.

2. KEINGINAN BERBELANJA LEBIH BERKURANG

Kalian tahu kan, bahwa di Instagram story banyak sekali iklan iklan barang-barang? Nah, itu kadang

membuat saya ingin sekali berbelanja. Atau, karena saya mengikuti akun-akun jual beli, jadi rasanya

kepengen berbelanja. Ketika detox, keinginan sangat jauh berkurang, karena jadi tidak bisa lihat-

lihat barang-barang tersebut lagi. hehehe. 

3. TIDUR LEBIH CEPAT

Nah, siapa yang paling senang sebelum tidur scroll-scroll dan kepo mengenai kehidupan orang lain?

Saya juga termasuk! Terutama para selebgram dan Artis ibukota. hahaha. Sejak detox, dan jika sudah

selesai pekerjaan di rumah, jadi gak tau harus ngapain, jadi lebih cepat untuk santai2 di atas tempat

tidur, sambil berkhayal, dan lama lama jadi tidur.

4. KAMU TIDAK PERLU MENGETAHUI SEMUA YANG TERJADI DI DUNIA

Kadang-kadang hal ini membuat kita overwhelmed atau "kepenuhan informasi". Apalagi informasi-

informasi yang bikin panas hati dan pikiran, atau yang membuat hati sesak. Ternyata itu asyik, ketika

kita tidak mengetahui semua yang terjadi. Dan alangkah fokusnya, bila kita menjalani apa yang terjadi

di sekitar kita, secara nyata. Kamu tidak perlu bersusah hati, Bunda Theresa bilang "ketika kamu tidak

bisa mencukupi semua orang, cukupkanlah satu orang."

Untuk menjalani social media detox ini memang sangat diperlukan kesiapan hati, pikiran serta komitmen.

Apalagi saya hanya sign out dan tidak menghapus aplikasinya ataupun deactivate account . 

Sungguh-sungguh diperlukan tekad kuat untuk tidak kembali membuka/masuk ke akun itu lagi.

Karena menurut saya, Instagram adalah suatu hal yang paling sering dibuka dan menarik untuk 

dimainkan dibanding Twitter & Facebook. Tetapi saya senang, saya bisa melakukannya. 

Hal menarik lainnya adalah, saya juga jadi merasa "tidak apa-apa" untuk tidak mem-posting semua ke-

giatan saya di Instagram. Sekarang lagi ingin memberikan hal-hal menarik di Instagram story. Semoga

saya berhasil!

xoxo,

Janice