Hello, there, guys! How are you? Good? I hope so J
Today I want to talk about me as an introvert. Introverts can be vary on personality. Not every introverts are having a same issue as me. So, I made this based on myself, because I don't want to generalized the others.
So many
articles said that introvert is not someone who completely abandoned themselves
from the society. Yes! It’s true. We can blend in, just not good as extrovert
did. We take actions mostly based on our feelings. So, let’s take a look at my
life as being one of them.
I do have small circle of good friends
And I pretty much grateful for that. Though,
I don’t have one particular group chats for it, I like to send them random
chats or just gossiping about life and stuff. I’m not casually chat them on a
daily basis, just when it’s time to say hello to them. Well, yeah, a bit strange,
but that’s exactly what I did. I’m also grateful for they are all a low maintenance
peeps for they never lower our statuses from friends to acquantainces just like
how SIMS did. Ugh!
I do cherish solitude moments
Where I don’t have to interact with people. I
ever found myself retreating from a group of conversation and stay distant for
a couple of minutes. And I don’t find it was a pity to myself. Or, I love love
love going on cinemas by myself and eating alone, having an internal
conversation. And yes, I find it was so peaceful, I didn’t feel so alone,
because I talked to myself regularly. Not that I have an imaginary friends, and
it’s good to talk to yourself. I usually motivate myself.
I love coming home to my ‘private place’
Which is my right hemisphere part of the
brain. Oh how I nurture this part of me. When everything goes wrong (at least
for me) I switch to be head in the clouds. I like creating visions, that I
usually put it to words, for drawing is out of my league. That’s why I love
reading fantasy books, adoring fictional
characters, because I’m aware that they’re all can’t hurt me like people always
did.
I am not good at small talks
How I hate open up a conversations. I do
hate it. But I’m the one who almost do it all the time! I want to know more
about them. But that’s not appropriate for someone you just knew. And besides,
I also don’t want to get attached at the same time. I don’t like opening up to
people or listening to their voluntary stories. Hahaha. It’s a bit complicated,
yes, I know. I really don’t know how to make the situation between two people
who just met goes along naturally. Especially if they’re also a reserved one.
Oh God, can I just gone with the wind right now?
I have two sides self that coming out when
it comes to the intersection
It is so hard for me to choose between 2
best options. I am indecisive. My one self told me this. My other self told me
that. And sometimes the result is not coming out very good, I often found
myself guilty or sorry. For example, I need to choose between two type of
foods. Which one will they like? They must be like this one, but I want to give
them something they never tried yet. But, will they happy if I give them this?
Yeah, that’s complicated. Because when it comes giving someone a present or a
souvenir, I believe it needs to be something they love and something they will
use it for a long time. I must choose it carefully.
I am not ambitious
That’s why some people see me as a ‘goes
where the river flows’ person. I am so full of dreams, but I am too afraid to
let my hands reach for the stars. I am too anxious for failure. I am afraid to
step out from my bubbles. But when I need to, I will stay behind the line,
calculate every possible threats and thinking on how to prevent all of them. When
the calculations is well done right, I step out little by little and expect
everything in a very careful way. That makes me a well planned one. I don't do sudden trip. I need to planned everything. Some trivia, we are an observer. The best one in the fields.
I am so emotional
As time goes by, this melancholic part of
me growing stronger. I don’t like it though. I could let out a tear just by
seeing an animal videos! Or a simple act of love from a drama. I love pretty
things. I love sweet simple love movies. I do review my life, or having an
epiphany and store it to my journal.
But I do enjoy talking to my extroverts, and taking a lot of new experiences!
I like talking about everything. I like sharing thoughts. I like hearing lovely stories, humors, gossips too. I love being surrounded by people I grow fond with. I like taking new activities, going to new places, reading new books, met new friends. It will be too overwhelmed sometimes we need to pull up the sheets again, but we introverts do love people that have a big warm heart.
Well, I think it’s a bit too much isn’t it?
Readers, here it is some of CUTE CARTOON (worth a click!!) to understand us even more. Are you an
introvert too? Tell me how is it like from your point of view! Till we meet
again!
xoxo,
Janice
