MY GRATITUDE

Thank you for those who makes this life interesting

Thank you for those who accept my awkward & weird personality

Thank you for those who accept my unusual actions when socializing

Thank you for those who likes me when I think there will be no one

Thank you for those who loves me from a distance

Thank you for those who keep pressuring me to do this and that for this go-where-the-wind flows human

Thank you for those who teaches me to have an elastic heart

Thank you for those who keep telling me to bring my meal every morning via a post it

Thank you for those who turns off my light every morning

Thank you for those who sent me to the public transport

Thank you for those who let me become what I want to be

Thank you for those who accept whatever my score is, as long as I pass the grade in my studies

Thank you for those who sent me to my office

Thank you for those who say Hi to me

Thank you for those who appreciates my helps

Thank you for those who see or not see my smallest, generous actions

Thank you for those who still tries to talk to me when I’m not the one who opens a convo

Thank you for those who silently hates or judging me

Thank you for those who still wants to arguing with me on chat in office hour

Thank you for those who makes me feel I’m super kind

Thank you for those who makes me feel invisible

Thank you for those which there when I’m needed

Thank you for those whose there when they needed me

Thank you for those who keep telling me that I’m so mommy-ish, yes I am

Thank you for those who doesn’t put a hard feeling with my words

Thank you for those who listen to all my random talks, random rants

Thank you for those who keep reminding me that God is real

Thank you for those who understands my hobbies

Thank you for those who understands my mood swings on period cycle

Thank you for those who breaks my heart

Thank you for those who do small jokes that sometimes hurts me, but it’s true somehow

Thank you for those who helps me run my life by giving me wages

Thank you for those who wants to hear my hedonism rants (I want this and that)

Thank you for those who cares for what I like

Thank you for those who keeps silent when needed

Thank you for those who keeps chatting random topics when I don’t know what topic should I pick on real convo

Thank you for those who don’t bother when I’m not sharing all my life diaries

Thank you for those who don’t make the situation more awkward

Thank you for those who bought from my small shops

Thank you for those who wants to get silly with me

Thank you for those who helps me & my sis run our business

Thank you for those who teach me how to love myself

Thank you for those who helps me achieve my goals

Thank you for those who makes me feel proud of myself

Thank you for those who makes me feel I’m still worth to be loved

Thank you for those who reminding me that I’m still their friend

Thank you for those who give me a hundred chances when I’m not that good enough

Thank you for those who makes me feel more of myself

Thank you for those who makes me feel more human

Thank you God, for becoming all of them

Thank you for always open your arms wide over and over and over again

xoxo,
Janice

TAKE YOUR TIME

MUA by Emi Kaneko ; Photography by unknown

Hello, everyone!

And Merry Christmas to you all. May the joy and love of Lord surrounds you always :)

How's your holiday? Thrilled enough? Take joy in every little thing you do.

I randomly want to scroll through Thought Catalog this afternoon to yeah, find some good article to read. Because it's been a while since the last I 'emptied' my books. And wanted to find about selfhelped article for this lonely soul. Hahahaha. Well, from those articles I'll sum up for you.

1. Improve yourself from every single aspects of your life

This is, undoubtedly true. It's the best time to improve yourself. Be a better person. 

Learn how to smile, be kind, make friends, learn new things, new hobbies, new skills, broad your mind so you're not being labeled as a boring one, read newspapers of political issues, business issues, environments, space, and whatever to broad your knowledge. Learn to do a deep convo instead of some useless small  talks. Be confident of yourself. Have integrity. Improve your personality. Pamper yourself a lil bit. Put on some makeup, take hair cut, buy good clothes, be as fine as you can be. Head up and open your chest. We all have our own ideal type, take courage to match those. 

2. Love and respect yourself. FIRST.

Love yourself doesn't mean being a narcissistic person. It means, that you maintain your health, get enough sleep, remove toxic peoples, love your job, know when to say no or yes, drink enough water, load up some positive thoughts, read books, go watch a movie, be kind, don't take things to hard, be independent, have some Yoga or morning run. All to get yourself a better and balanced life.

3. Do not LESSEN your worth

Never. Ever. There will be someone that will match your personality. That will match your worth.

All of your hard works, will be paid. A partner that requires you to be less and match their standard personality doesn't even worth your bag, huh. Unless you want to do so. Then, I said freewill is given to you. 

4. Travel

Travelling solo is everyone's dream. If you really mean it, travelling will do a worth favor for you. From travelling, you can learn so many new perspectives of how this world is mad and find what you need to do, learn from all of the people around you, bad, good. The best time to have a self introspection, to have an enlightenment, to find a turning point of your life.

5. Always do a question start from "Am I?" instead of blaming people

Always. Questioned yourself first "Why everyone doesn't like me?" "Why I don't enjoy my job?" "What can I do to make more money?" instead of blaming people for what was done to us.

6. Remember. HE got a weird calculations of time

If it's not His time yet. It will not come to us. And if it's come to us, than it's not from Him. Trusting God and put our faith isn't an easy task. Surrender all things, and let Him do the magic. 

Faith is believe of what you can't see, and see what you believe -St. Augustine

To those who seek the wonder of themselves, may the universe be with you. Let us all be bright as we have to be.

xoxo,

Janice